So beautiful. J. reminded me of two more children in heaven praying for us. Her own little one, who left us (too early for us, but right for God) is interceding, as well as D's little Anna. In the silence of my heart, I saw our relatives with them, praying for us. I include them now, in my Mass at the Sanctus.
Sharing with J. of the marching orders was scary and exciting at the same time. Only with the prompting of the Holy Spirit can I have the courage to share what I know is God's will.
How do I know it's God's will? Because He loves us, and desires us all to be united with Him! It's not about me, it's not about any kind of miraculous things that may and will happen. It's about the end-game. It's about every person in this family seeing our Lord face to face with JOY not fear, with Love not anger, with Understanding, not confusion. That is His will.
Our only part, you who reads this, is to continue to pray with all our heart that God's will be done in every one of their lives. Pray for their good. Pray for peace and joy in the hearts. Even when you are having a crappy day, and the world seems to be against you. Even when you have anger in your heart. Put it all aside for the time of a prayer to ask God to bless them. And if you go to Mass (where the centre of all the power from Christ comes forth through the Eucharist) bring them all with you. Ask Jesus, if it be His will, to bless each and every one that you are praying for with the fruit of this Eucharistic union.
If you haven't been to Mass for a long time, especially the sacrament of Penance (Confession) think about it. That's where you get your heavenly armor - the strength to spiritually handle almost anything. I don't enter any battle without making sure I have my armor on.
If you just can't do that right now, know that I'm praying for you, your relatives and loved ones in heaven and purgatory are praying for you as well, and that nothing is impossible with God.
I love you.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Sunday, June 15, 2014
The feast of the Holy Trinity June 15, 2014
Today's feast of the Holy Trinity, is also the Feast of Saint Elizabeth of Portugal, and Father's Day.
The church was full to the rafters today with many of our Portuguese parishoners as they had a procession all around the church.
Yesterday I spent the day with Lucy, praying for our family, praying for you. It was lovely. Poor Lucy's memory extends over the last half hour before she starts again, but her long term memory is wonderful. She is living the sacrament of the present time.
Today at Mass, it was brought to mind the children who might have been with us, but aren't. I saw them hand in hand with Ellie, sharing the Mass with us. I pray that they could hear me, as I asked them to join in prayer for all the people in our family. I welcomed them with love. I look forward to seeing them in heaven one day.
At the Sanctus I ask all of our relatives in heaven and purgatory to pray for all of us on earth, for healing and reconciliation. Today I asked those children who, for one reason or another, did not share life with us, to pray for us as well.
Pray for us, Our Lady of Guadalupe, that we be made worthy of the promises of Christ.
The church was full to the rafters today with many of our Portuguese parishoners as they had a procession all around the church.
Yesterday I spent the day with Lucy, praying for our family, praying for you. It was lovely. Poor Lucy's memory extends over the last half hour before she starts again, but her long term memory is wonderful. She is living the sacrament of the present time.
Today at Mass, it was brought to mind the children who might have been with us, but aren't. I saw them hand in hand with Ellie, sharing the Mass with us. I pray that they could hear me, as I asked them to join in prayer for all the people in our family. I welcomed them with love. I look forward to seeing them in heaven one day.
At the Sanctus I ask all of our relatives in heaven and purgatory to pray for all of us on earth, for healing and reconciliation. Today I asked those children who, for one reason or another, did not share life with us, to pray for us as well.
Pray for us, Our Lady of Guadalupe, that we be made worthy of the promises of Christ.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Pray for us, O Holy Mother of God, that we will be made worthy of the Promises of Christ.
It's been an amazing couple of weeks. In my last entry, I wrote how Erica Gibello opened our eyes to the marching orders, and how it's not just me praying anymore. I'm united with my sister now.
Praise God. I know that our united prayers, together with all the ancestors in heaven and purgatory, who are also praying with us, will truly set a path of restoration and recovery for every member in our family... if they choose to accept it.
That's the frustrating thing sometimes. That "free will" thing that God has given us. When we open our will and align it with God's, we truly have peace, but it's hard to do that sometimes. Sin and past hurts and shame block our receptivity. So, it's up to intercessors, especially our relatives in heaven and in purgatory, to storm the gates of heaven and ask for help, but at the same time, trust that each and every one of the 49 members of the family will come to know the reality of God's love for us.
There are chinks in the wall, when I have a chance to see them. Little things, like an openness to prayer. Little things, like walking into my mom's apartment and she's watching a Christian television show. (that's not so little, really!) And seeing the crucifix outside of the shirt on some loved ones, bearing witness, perhaps without being aware of it. Another chink, is having one sister stare for over two minutes at the baptism picture of another sister. Lord, we are praying! Hear our prayer.
The ninth day of my novena to Our Lady Undoer of Knots I received three job offers on the same day. I have taken one of the offers and I am praying hard that I am a good and worthy employee and a witness to God in everything I do, even if I don't necessarily say "God this, and God that". I believe that this must be God's will, for one reason or another, especially because of the call which happened at such an opportune time.
I will be missing my morning Mass! I am looking for opportunities to spend time with the Lord nonetheless. Wednesday night, first Fridays, and weekends. Time in prayer, of course. Praying for you in the novenas and rosaries.
And every step towards the Eucharist. I hear the "call" in so many of the homilies, and so many different things that are said to me, that I know that these marching orders to pray for you are real and definitely God's will. Even though I don't talk to you, or see you on a regular basis, know that you are continually in my prayers, and I trust that God is working in your life, whether or not I know about it. I'm just an instrument of intercession. When He wants me to know something, he'll let me know!
Last Saturday was the Vigil of Pentecost. I was blessed to be there with my sister S. It was a very peaceful time of prayer and praise and worship. Two priests were there to pray over people and to me it was like heaven. I kept on seeing people that I knew from the past, or another conference, or retreat, RCIA etc. etc. It must be like that in heaven, bumping into people who love Jesus too.
God spoke clearly to me at one point. He told me that I was his "fool for Christ" And yes, truly I was and continue to be his fool. When I had my conversion, so many people had thought I had gone crazy. My parents, my friends, my husband, my family. I could not stop being a fool for Him, regardless of the concern or distain that people had for my new found love. It was... what it was.
Then God told me, (on Saturday) that S. was his "Joy of the Lord". And she is. Even in her pain, she has Joy. It's a wonderful gift.
Then Gold told me that my other sister would be "the strength of His arm." Wow. I wonder what that will be? I wonder what that means? Only time will tell. I stood there in awe that those words were said to me. And dear sister, know this. If you are reading this because I told you to read this — you are the Strength of His Arm. This was in the first week of June, 2014. WOW.
Praise God. I know that our united prayers, together with all the ancestors in heaven and purgatory, who are also praying with us, will truly set a path of restoration and recovery for every member in our family... if they choose to accept it.
That's the frustrating thing sometimes. That "free will" thing that God has given us. When we open our will and align it with God's, we truly have peace, but it's hard to do that sometimes. Sin and past hurts and shame block our receptivity. So, it's up to intercessors, especially our relatives in heaven and in purgatory, to storm the gates of heaven and ask for help, but at the same time, trust that each and every one of the 49 members of the family will come to know the reality of God's love for us.
There are chinks in the wall, when I have a chance to see them. Little things, like an openness to prayer. Little things, like walking into my mom's apartment and she's watching a Christian television show. (that's not so little, really!) And seeing the crucifix outside of the shirt on some loved ones, bearing witness, perhaps without being aware of it. Another chink, is having one sister stare for over two minutes at the baptism picture of another sister. Lord, we are praying! Hear our prayer.
The ninth day of my novena to Our Lady Undoer of Knots I received three job offers on the same day. I have taken one of the offers and I am praying hard that I am a good and worthy employee and a witness to God in everything I do, even if I don't necessarily say "God this, and God that". I believe that this must be God's will, for one reason or another, especially because of the call which happened at such an opportune time.
I will be missing my morning Mass! I am looking for opportunities to spend time with the Lord nonetheless. Wednesday night, first Fridays, and weekends. Time in prayer, of course. Praying for you in the novenas and rosaries.
And every step towards the Eucharist. I hear the "call" in so many of the homilies, and so many different things that are said to me, that I know that these marching orders to pray for you are real and definitely God's will. Even though I don't talk to you, or see you on a regular basis, know that you are continually in my prayers, and I trust that God is working in your life, whether or not I know about it. I'm just an instrument of intercession. When He wants me to know something, he'll let me know!
Last Saturday was the Vigil of Pentecost. I was blessed to be there with my sister S. It was a very peaceful time of prayer and praise and worship. Two priests were there to pray over people and to me it was like heaven. I kept on seeing people that I knew from the past, or another conference, or retreat, RCIA etc. etc. It must be like that in heaven, bumping into people who love Jesus too.
God spoke clearly to me at one point. He told me that I was his "fool for Christ" And yes, truly I was and continue to be his fool. When I had my conversion, so many people had thought I had gone crazy. My parents, my friends, my husband, my family. I could not stop being a fool for Him, regardless of the concern or distain that people had for my new found love. It was... what it was.
Then God told me, (on Saturday) that S. was his "Joy of the Lord". And she is. Even in her pain, she has Joy. It's a wonderful gift.
Then Gold told me that my other sister would be "the strength of His arm." Wow. I wonder what that will be? I wonder what that means? Only time will tell. I stood there in awe that those words were said to me. And dear sister, know this. If you are reading this because I told you to read this — you are the Strength of His Arm. This was in the first week of June, 2014. WOW.
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